my life from now

He's texting to me, but i don't really want to see anybody for a long time.
The only one who i want to see is my psychologist. She's my friend now... I think, that is, but it's just her job.
I've got a litlle big problem.
I can't go to school. I can't see other people.
Not becouse i don't want.
I just can't.
So for few days i'm lying in bed, and trying to not cry.

It's difficult to me. I don't know what's happening. I'm so scared...

17 November i've got a visit in psychiatrist, and i still didn't know what to say to him/her.

My life from now will be look like that. What i can do. I don't really know.

In my head is a lot of thought. That's lot, the i can tell it words.