Hello

Hello. This is my first post, is 8:50 PM and i didint know what to say.
I'm trying to write it in english, but it can be hard for me 'cuse i dont know this language that much how i wont.
 At first i wont to introduce oneself. Im Willem (its not my real name, but i like it), im 17 and im a transboy. Im interesting in much weirdo stuff, or not that weird how i think they are. I like fashion... I think. I like draw too, and im combinet it to this.
I try to be a fashion designer. I have some project and i think, i'll be set it here, for you.

But i want to talk about something right now.

I didn't want bo live enymore. I want to kill myself.
Some people say "oh, this movie was been that bad. I want to kill yourself." Or something
But im serious. I can't see anything in this world for me. I can't find it.
Enything i want is laying all day in bed. But my bed isn't good. My hous didn't be my house anymore. I want to live. I want to life.
But how i can, when enything doesn't have a sense?

But i'm trying to show other people, that life is fuckin amazing.
You need to find your happines and live. Just.
It's simple.
Be happy because you can walk with your feet on the earth. You need to say "i love you' people who derever to it. And its not must be boyfriend/girlfriend. It can be, friend, mom, dad, sister whoever u'now?
You need to traveled, you need, to find new friend. You need to live. Ok?
So go.